one of my best friends is the most beautiful girl ive ever seen, but she can't see it.
it kills me to hear her saying everything i feel/have felt before.
cheer up kid, i love you always.
<3

i miss cait a lot.
but surprisingly, summer is going on very well without her.
i like how she calls/texts me every night hahaha.
oh my.

anyways.
last night i pretty much had the best night ever.
i've been spending all this time with jimmy and josh.
i never thought jimmy and i would be as tight as we are, and i love it.
my mom is kind of freaking out cuz shes not used to me hanging out with a bunch of guys who are only friends.
i love spending time with gillikin, jimmy, steve, josh...

its been a very very long time since i have taken things this slow.
i love getting to know him...
and sitting up until 5AM talking about absolutely nothing...
sitting outside smoking, laughing, and looking at the stars....
being too shy and nervous to even hold hands...
looking someone in the eye and getting a heartfelt, vulnerable, and honest smile...
and i know when we hang out and its not just the two of us, he'll act like im just one of the guys or just a friend...
and i'm OK with that, i'm more than OK with it.
i like this boi so much. 
its crazy to me, that it started with me just thinking he was one very very sexy boi who somewhat resembled Justin Timberlake....
and its developed to this thing where we talk until crazy hours of the night/morning and hang out all the time...
i don't wanna let this feeling go...

aside from that tho....tomorrow is amy's mom's surprise party.
i'm so excited.!
i love amy loulou mucho...it took us 3 years to be good friends and im so effing glad we did.!
not sure what i'd do without that girl....!

i can tell already what an amazing summer this will be.
i have a boi to be with.
i'm getting along with my family pretty well.
i might get to meet my brother.
and i have the best friends in the world.!
nikkilynn, amy, ashley, teesie, cait, kat, jimmy, josh, gillikin....
its gonna be a good summer for sure.!!!
<333

This week has been real interesting.
In a ((mostly)) good way.
And today my loves Cassie and Liz are come to visit.!
YAY.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I lovesthem.!
<33

Soooo....
Jeremy....yeah.
i dont know whats up with him.
i'm surprised at how upset this is making me.
i'm so confused...
i guess i just don't know what turned things around with us.
cassandra and me were talking about what had gone down.
and she suggested i go over to his house and talk to him.
i think i might do that, next week sometime.
i'm really scared to.
i just don't know exactly what i want to say...

he makes me real nervous, but at the same time, i'm not scared around him at all.
i told him how i don't trust men at all, and he told me how he doesn't trust women.
but then we both trust each other enough to share our deepest darkest secrets and fears.
i didn't want a boyfriend.
not at all.
when i met jeremy i thought he'd just be another typical guy.
we'd be friends with benefits, o rmaybe even just friends.
when i realized he wanted more, i was scared and i was sure i'd end up hurting him, but i went for it anyways and then i tripped.
i fell for him and wanted nothing more than to just...BE with him...
i didn't WANT a boyfriend.
not until wednesday, and suddenly it just hit me like a fucking brick.
jeremy's not like the other guys i have dated or even just liked.
he's different-he's a really good guy... and they're hard to come by, especially in Grand Rapids.
i don't know what the point of this was really...
to complain.? to get advice.? to just get my feelings out.?
i really don't know.

Quote of my life from Lost tonight:
"why do you love me.?"
"because you're a good man, and in my experience, they're hard to come by."

my new years resolution is to be more outgoing.
typically i am fairly shyaround people i do not know...
and i want to change that and be more outgoing.
yep.
that is all.
happy new year yall.

pooopppppp! my name is erynn and i like poop! mmmmm its so yummmy!

i need to do something new and different with my hair.
but i like it black. 
suggestions?

Sweetest Day turned out not so bad for me.
I still think its a terrible "holiday" though.
But I didnt have a sweetie. :o(
I HAD TEN OF THEM!
Thats right bitches!
Actually.
I only talk to about 5 of them.
But I WANT to talk to the rest of them.
And I talked to them all tonight.
And that was the important part.
Mmmhmm.
Anywho, I shall list all of my Sweeties:
-ELLIE!
-CHRISSY!
-JAYME!
-MISSY!
-CHELSEA!
-HANNAH!
-MELISSA!
-LARRY!
-SEAN!
-MARK!
Oh yeah. It was a good time.
I hope that I am not forgetting anyone and if I am, I am sorry.
So yeah, we went to Rams Horn and it was fun!
Afterwards some of us chicas went to Jayme's and played Scattergories.
Jayme won, but did NOT dominate!
I was only 6 points behind her and it was my first time playing!
I was excited cuz I thought Id be TERRIBLE!
haha.
Mmmhmm.
Thats the end of this update because LISSA is in my room redecorating my board.
Goodnight Loves!
And thank you to my 10 Sweeties (only about 3 of you will see this though!) for making my Sweetest Day not so bad!
I loooooooooooooooove you!!!
:oD

Sooooooo.
I am sitting here with Lissa in TV Broadcasting.
And we are bored.
Maybe she's not.
I do not know.
But I am bored.
And I am extremely hyper as well.
I am so excited for this weekend.
*ADD Moment* On these computers, if you put the mouse on a piece of text, it will tell you what that word is in Spanish! I do not know how I feel about that!
OK, back to the subject of this weekend.
Friday there is a ginormous group of us going to see The Exorcism of Emily Rose. So far there is Me, Jayme, Lissa, Melinda, Chrissy, Jack, Phil, and Mike.
Possibly Claire.
Perhaps Cailin.
Maybe you?
It will be a fun time.
Saturday Me, Jayme, Melinda, chrissy, and Cailin are going to see Degrassi peoples at Lakeside mall SCORE!
Then at night, Me, Angie, and Lissa are hitting up the DLS dance.
That might be mildly awkward to be seeing Eric again and all.

( my Stunning Revelation, if you care.  )

But I think it will be fun nonetheless.
Missys spending the night after the dance.
Then she is going home the next day.
And I am doing this silly walk thing for GA youth group.
I'm not too keen on this idea.
But Mommy dearest is making me.

So it is going to be a good weekend.
And I will kickstart it with my favouritest people ever!
Hooray for good friends and good times!!!

What Makes You.. by SheBangs12
Your name?
Your gender?	MaleFemaleOther
What makes you sexy?	What the Hell? You aren't sexy!
What makes you pretty?	Everything
What makes you loveable?	Who could love you?!
What makes you fun?	Your quick wit
What makes you irresistable?	Your flirtatious nature
What makes you cute?	Cute? You? Hahaha.
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Haha its funny, its pretty much true! haha!

A - Age you got your first kiss: 14
B - Band listening to right now: LFO
C - Crush: I gots a few of those.
D - Dad's name: Jerry (and he can KICK JUSTINS DADS ASS)
E - Easiest person to talk to: alot of people but mostly Jeff, Eric, Liz, and Missy
F - Favorite bands at the moment: Fall Out Boy, The Adacemy Is.., SPICE GIRLS
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: how about neither?
H - Hometown: Warren
I - Instruments: guitar
J - Junior High: SVF
K - Kids: sure but not now
L - Longest car ride ever: do bus rides count? If yes then in France going from N. France to S. France
M - Mom's name: Kathy
N - Nicknames: Granny, ERRRRRRRRR, Ren, Tart, Oinkerz, Timber, Latex Freak, Monkey Butt, i cant remember the million others i have
O - One wish: to be able to tell people how i feel rather than just to keep everything inside.
P - Phobia[s]: the dark, spiders, heights
Q - Quotes: "People say youre going the wrong way when its simply a way of your own." ~Angelina Jolie
R - Reason to smile: Bloody Kisses, Liquid Vamp, my friends, him.
S - Song you sang last: Why do you love me *Garbage*
T - Time you woke up today: 8:39 and then again at 11:10
U - Unknown fact about me: i am rarely happy
V - Vegetable you hate: most
W - Worst habit(s): pretending to be happy 24/7....trying to impress someone
X - X-rays you've had: ankle and teeth
Y - Yummy food: basically anything
Z - Zodiac sign: pisces

your turn to answer questions!

01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. color of eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. When's the last time you saw me?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
35. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
36. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
37. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
38. Would you make a move on me?
39. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

UNTITLED

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed alot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his fatehr always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Clause
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed alot
And his father never tucked him in at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence" A Question"
because that was his question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it
Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.



Compliments of THE PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER, PAGES 70-73
*takes a bow*

Well today was sucha good day! Went to Somerset with Mandi, Cassie, and Liz and that was mega fun. I have purple eyelashes! Kind of... haha, so then we all came back to my house andmade pizza and watched the Rocky Horror Picture Show and it was also mega fun. Then driving MAndi home, well that was an adventure in itself. Ha. Drove Cassie and Liz to Liz's house and then I came home for like 3 minutes and then mom drove me to AMC. I met up with Erin there and we saw Lords of Dogtown and that was pretty good. Not exactly what I had expected, but it was funny and I rather liked it. And now here I am. Smiling and thinking about my day. I like it. Thank you for making it good ladies!!
Tomorrow will be fun as well. Or at least I hope so! It will be kind of a lazy day too which is good. Babysitting in the morning...then laying around until church. And then going on my 'date' with Alex. So that should be fun! Sunday is my total relax day and oh for Wednesday, who want to go out to Star Gratiot with me hmm?! Let me know cuz I want to find lotsa peoples to go during the day!

<3Erinn

I like the fact that I can like you, and you dont like me back, yet we can be such close friends and be hanging out all the time. It makes me smile. Thank you darling:0)


Tonight was a fun night. I hung out with Liz yet again. We went to BK and then 'back to her house.' And she even bought a pair of sheos at her house. hahahaha. And I totally had a wonderful idea to egg someones house only we had no eggs and I had no guts. And Liz is teaching me to be mean to peoples faces. hahaha. So many more jokes tonight. <3s to you dear.


Heart/Erinn.

Today was fun. Went to lunch at Coney with Liz. Then we had some time to kill before the movie so we went to the mall and that was fun. Then we met up with Missy and Jayme to see The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. I was quite upset. The butchered it. It didnt much resemble the book and that made me sad. It was too happy for one thing. And they left out an entire character. I was disgusted. Anyways, after that I didnt feel like going home and neither did Liz so we went back to the mall. We bling-blinged our phones at her house and then I met up w/Jackie at Carribou and we studied for French. I came home and had forgotten about guitar so i just skipped it. ha. and now here i am. and it has been quite the splendid day!:0)
<3 Erinn

Boys are stupid. I need to find myself a nice girl that's not going to hurt me....


I want you to know that for as much as I loved you, as much as I still do love, and as much as I know I always will love you; I hate you just as much. You hurt me, and I just wish that I knew how I could make you hurt just as much. For all the times I thought it and did nto say it, yes, you can be the biggest ASSHOLE I have ever known.

Its been sucha good weekend! Saturday was kind of a bad day and then I read my message from Liz and i just died laughing and it made my day. Then at night me and Jeff went to see The Longest Yard and that was fun. On Sunday I went to my grandma's which was not fun. But then I went with Nikki to Amy's bonfire and that was pretty fun although I probly didnt seem like I was having fun. Monday I cleaned my room and then me and Jack went putt putt and that was fun. Some little kid told his dad that he couldnt golf if I was looking at him so I had to look the other way....lol. Then we went back to my house and watched Bruce Almighty and after he left I had dinner. Then Jackie came over and we did some majour cramming for the Psych test today (whichI think i did quite well on actually!). That was fun. Today I took my first two finals (Psych and Lit) and handed in soccer stuff. Next I shall take my nap! Tomorrow Cailin, Mandi, Missy, Catie, Katie, Jackie, Liz, and me are going to see The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. Any other Foley girls want to come with us? You surely can! And then after I take people home I'm meeting Jackie at Carribou for another Cram Session. ha! It shall be mega fun I think. OK, nap time now!!

<3Erinn

So last night was a pretty good night! Me and missy went to the mall and juss kinda looked around and what not and i got a book. I went in to see Alex too. But he was busy so i juss got a chance to say hi then we left. And then me and jeff went to see The Longest Yard at night and that was mega funny! I loved it. Nikki and Amy invited us to Amys bonfire but we didnt go cuz we were mega tired. I got home and talked a bit to Eric and Jack and Jeff and then I watched SNL and went to bed. Today I watched Moulin Rouge and painted my nails hot orange and brown and theyre mega cute. Mom took me to Hot Topic and bought me a mega cute tube top and Tinkerbell earrings and a pen. And she bought me flip flops from marshall fields. Then when I came home I read the messages Liz left me and they made me laugh and then I read the message Jack left me and it made me smile as well! And now Im going to my grandmas to be bored.:0) Fun times. Please call me people ha.


<3Erinn

P.S....TOMORROW!!!:oD

So last night was fun. After battle of the bands me and liz hung out. I had ta borrow some of her clotehs and incidentally i borrowed jeans that she borrowed from cassie. ha. so then we went to birmingham and that was fun. She made me go car dodging to the park! i was scared! And i was all rebellious with her and walked when the sign clearly said DO NOT WALK! haha. Yes, thats right Lis is corrupting me, making me all rebellious and what not. lmao. And then after all that car dodging the park was messed up and liz was a lil sad. and then we were walking around the sand piles and got a wee bit scared because all of a sudden two guys came out fromt he wooded areas and we juss stood still until we thought they were gone an we started laughing and then they reappeared! and i was like clinging to liz's arm lol. Then we had ta start heading back and she gave me a flower. which some old guy told me was a 'love tulip' ha. We still had some time ta kill so we sat downa nd people watched. then i dropped her off and came home to the rage of my mother. ohyes, a good night. went to sleep and woke up but didnt want to. took a shower cleaned my room cleaned my car here i am. Going to the movies with jeff tonight. and then either tomorrow or monday i get to see jack!! yay! so this weekend has gotten a pretty good start and i am thiking its can only get better.